3.49am
I didn't get a proper sleep since sat and really deprive of it now. I need to sleep after this post. But my bed is currently in a mess with books which i'm very lazy to clear. Haiii thankfully sch starts at 2pm tmr and only one lecture. Anw i'm sad bcus i lost my organiser and my coin pouch! Idk where it had been too and i couldn't rmb the last time i saw it. It just seems to disappear without me knowing la. I was intending to get a replacement for my organiser just now then i realise shops are selling organiser for 2010 alr. Less than 2 mths and a new year begin. Time flies. So now i've to stick to my Tp organiser which is not in a proper state with the back part falling apart and a rubber band tie ard it. Pathetic. I need to search for a new coin pouch asap too.

Gdnight and i ate so much snack during the weekend. Hello panda and more hello panda. So scary. I need to stop satisfying my cravings and stop pampering myself too much. Just so you know, me = snack lover ^^

You made everything worthwhile and you know i hate you.

Oktoberfest @ TimbreMobile!


Timbremobile is the most convenient place for me man seriously haha and before it shift to somewhere else in 6 mths time, i must keep going and eat my roasted duck pizza till i get fat and sick of it :)))

Its sunday! I just got out of a hot shower (my 1st shower of the day) yes i stayed home the whole day which i'm v. happy. I completed all the things that i wanted myself to do. Anw after a hot shower, i felt a lot better bcus i can feel a sick bug is attacking me alr and i'm getting a runny nose. Before i start going to the toilet for x times for toilet paper, i must get hold a roll of it infront of me. And probably i know the reason why i didn't have any appetite for anything today and my last food was an apple. I didn't have a proper meal and no cravings for me to satisfy too :( I practically just felt very sleepy the whole day. I woke up at 1pm and took a nap for 2 hours at 430pm, then its 11pm now and i'm sleepy! Signs of falling sick??? :( I don't want to fall sick and especially not this coming week. Hopefully my each a cup green tea i'm drinking now is useful and i'll feel better tmr.

I'm really glad that this week is more/less coming to an end. Too much to handle. Especially my feelings. I didn't treat my feelings well enough and barely could took control of it. Well, not all the feelings were negative but i'd been thinking through quite a lot. Idk whether is it a good or bad thing but i guess i'd come to my senses. In a way? I cried over some thing that i read which i think i was paranoid about. Very much crazy. Cried over a stranger. Just smack me seriously. Then i got surprised, twice. First, i was really surprised. Second, i was really touched. I don't think i deserve it but it was really very much appreciated. In all, i'm really very grateful and i'm happy. Thank you once again.

I always repeat myself not to cry but i really can't help it but i'm glad that i know there's really people out there who truly cares for me. I really don't mind having just a handful of true friends than countless of friends who just kick me aside when i need someone and blah you know the details.



A wordy post lead to a boring entry but i only blog like once/twice a week... so you know i'll tend to type a lot more. Ok sum up, i lost a $20 voucher unknowingly....i think i threw it in the dustbin bcus i was too distracted (thanks to zy). I went to my favourite place for ice cream (!). I was an "innocent" devil on halloween bcus i was not sporting enough to apply make up haha. I got my pay cheque but i didn't hit my target, still i'm happy enough la.

Lastly, i ate a lot.

Ok why there isn't any nice clothes online anymore. Tsk.

K sleep early people and gdnight. Who says no one is looking forward to monday? Haha i finally catching a movie tmr and i can eat my popcorn ^^

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My mum is in the living room watching dvd and my dad is in the room listening to music and i just heard my mum telling my dad that the song he is playing now is nice. Then he went to change the song. Hahaha it just made me laugh in my own room.

Now i get why my friends always say my family is so loud at night. We are so awake at this timing.

At this moment, i cried. I finally cried.
With my heart ache and the tears just rolled down so naturally.
I give up.

Chinatown, Ann Siang Hill & Pluck @ Haji!




















Way overdue picx and i got alot more to post but i'll slowly take my time!

Like everyone knows, sch takes up so much time and it is just the 1st week of sch, i barely could last through one lecture. Tutorials haven't even begin leh....walau and i can see sem2 gna be so much tougher. Idk, i guess i just have to slowly get used to sch again and i hate to dress up for sch alr. Such a chore man. Argh. Btw i had successfully juggled between sch and work for the 1st week, so far so good and hopefully i'll remain this way. Some people just call me crazy for handling work and studies and i got nagged for so many times by my family but i'll still remain as stubborn as it is.

Throughout the week i caught Julie&Julia and Tsunami show, both are ok....when are all the nicer movies coming out?? :(:( Btw i finally believe that cathay sell the best popcorn. Hahah.

Ok this post is damn crappy and i'm posting for the sake of posting. Who is still reading? Anw
today's weather is really humid and sitting in the living room can just make me feel so sticky. Luckily i'm heading out soon and its evening alr but that means half the day alr gone and there's sch tmr. Nvm nvm stop thinking about it and glad that i completed my tutorials. I need to prepare and it is the weekend! i deserve a cup of gmt though i felt really guilty after finishing a quarter of egg rolls with shredded pork. Sinful.

Bye!

Jacq's Birthday @ Crystal Jade






And she was right. She said "you will take very long to post these picx up" Haha and yes, it was taken at the end of sept? Anw i rmb celebrating her birthday at crystal jade and we ordered way too much or more like i was the one insisting on ordering haha i love seeing a table full of food! And she is someone who is expressionless bcus she was barely shocked when i surprised her with a cake. Tsk! Anw babe, we must really try the buffet thing @ holland v soon. I really mean it this time round and no more using any crystal jade outlet to replace it. Haha see you soon ^^

I actually survived 1st day of sch when i went timbre last night and chilled at starbucks till 3am. I couldn't even fall asleep at night and still had to force myself to sleep then have to force myself to wake up at 830am. Omg. So i only had to attend one lecture and i was so pissed off bcus we got into the lecture hall, they gave some briefing and told us that lecture was cancelled. I swear this shows how sch is taking my sleep away man. Tsk.

Btw i thought i was quite stupid cus i actually went to search all the lectures for each subject so that i can make my life easier in sch. Haha i abit too free eh but i managed to find slots for bizstats on other days so i don't have to go to sch on tues!!!!!!! Must go share with my classmates alr hahaha.

My eyes are getting tired and i seriously hate msn. The sound and blinking of light makes me giddy. Gdnight!! I got no sch tmr yayy

After today, i realised how much MORE we have to treasure the people ard us. Really. Today just shook me up so hard and i didn't know life can just be taken away so easily without us knowing or to even try preventing it. Some things cannot even do precaution bcus accident happen and it is so fast. Even though it was a minor one today, i really don't know how i would react when a major one happens *touch wood. I don't want anything to happen to my family members. They are so dear to me that i can't imagine losing one of them.

Firstly i thought it was a joke when i got a call then i started to stammer and ask stupid questions like how drama series did, i was really worried but tried to calm myself down. When i was on my way to the hospital, so many things were running through my mind which caused me to have a really bad headache and like predicted, i thought i was strong and able to control my tears but i still cried in the end. Too much for me to take in. Heart aches.



Anw glad everything is better now and everyone pls take care bcus life is short and is not predictable at all :(

Btw i checked my timetable and idk whether to be happy or angry bcus i have 2 days with long breaks and i have a day when there's only one lecture which hopefully i can try crashing other lecture then i can have one off day!! I'm glad that at least i got the cds that i wanted (yay). Currently i'm more puzzled on how to book my driving and plan my working schedule (!!!) So frustrated.

Btw are there still gentlemen living on earth?? Where are all the nice guys go to alr.....i really can't stand it. Tsk.

Very wordy post. Skip it ok?











I reached home @ 11am this morning and actually dragged myself to wash up and shower and head to bed in my pjs. I had so much fun with my colleagues ytd and supposely to drink but i can't...you would be amazed by the alcohol percentage that i can take. Don't talk about it too but i tried red wine and it was :O! I really hate drinking and i ate so much ytd...sinful ttm bcus i gave in to my cravings - Mcdonalds!!! I'd been wanting to eat fries and mcflurry and i actually ordered mcnugget meal w additional large fries & Koko krunch mcflurry (damn nice! Cornetto one was better though) then mac breakfast in the morning. I reached home with a huge tummy :( & you know people in my life seriously have this habit to ruin my sleep! I don't blame them but its always at the wrong time. I was so tired and heading to bed, my friend texted me to play a fool with me, then in between i got text msges from friends who don't contact me normally, then i got a call from videoezy just cause i haven't return my angels demon dvd FOR A DAY ONLY and when i was so tired from 4-6, that zy and steven (above) kept msging and calling me...

Anw we had dinner together and i finally got drove by zy. I was sitting at the front and thinking how all 3 of us had known each other from sec 2 and we quarrelled, argued, teased, played etc togther, how we used to gossip, shared about our r/s problems and they saw me cry + unglam moments so many times. Haha here we are today, all of us in poly and we grew up so much. Our mentality and thinking had actually changed but glad that our character remain the same! :)

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I typed a whole chunk of words just now expressing how i truly felt ytd but i'm gna del it. End of it, i realised i don't want to let the 'whole world' know anymore. I don't want to ruin other image and by typing it out already showing that i'm a hypocrite. Still end of the day, i'm so affected by what other people had said when i told myself earlier that i would ignore it and handle it well. I must stop being 'nice'. Just like how i'm 'nice' to a spider when i see it in the morning crawling in my toilet, i can't bear to whack it cause i know it will go away. At night i still see the same spider crawling and i'm thinking why it didn't go away. Still, i'm gna let it crawl ard till it get bored of my toilet and crawl away automatically.

Speaking of nice, i actually returned a phone that i found at Tangs today. Nice right me, i still wanted to call the person that the owner of the phone last called but two of my lovely friends told me not to act nice and stop being so troublesome. So too bad. Anw i hope the owner will retrieve it back at Tangs soon.

Putting all my crap aside just hope that everyone should have the basic respect for others be it to friends/family or even strangers. I didn't get the basic respect from someone who is so much more experienced and older than me. I'll just shut up from now onwards and as long as i don't do anything wrong, i don't think i deserve to get any bad treatments. I'm not gna express myself so easily (i try) if you know me, i can nv control my emotions. I show it out too quickly but i'm still gna try i don't want to let others read me so easily.

Gdnight.